Does the SIZE really matters?

Today I got a revelation: all the things I believed about Richard's feelings for me are true! That only demostrates that I know him so good that we don't even need words... that's sweet.. friends do that kind of things. All this happended listening to Paolo Nutini, wich my dearest friend Naughty Prraka will totally understand why is this so important! and after a lovely afternoon of drinking coffee, watch series with Richard and talk about the past and the present I had to call my BFF to talk about everything and anything and we (of course) ended talking about guys... guys from the past, from the present and from the future.
Going back to my past I couldn't avoid ask myself: Does the size really matters? For me I thought it was: buying shoes was always terrible for me until I got to this wonderful country where everyone is huge and women need bigger shoes. Then, there is the size of the clothes of course.. now with the internet shopping you have to take very good care about your size.
About men, I always had felt atracted to tall ones and so, I have been always dating tall ones until I met Jack. He's not really short actually, but short enough to look short to me, but the truth is that I like him soooo much.. does this mean something? And Brian? He's short enough too but kisses sooo good!!! May I forget the shortyness because they are good in everything else?
What about in bed? does that size matters?
For us it does! We have never really see a shorty or a skinny sized guy more than once if he was so... the guys we have keep seing are because they satisfy us in all possible ways. We think that's a very important part of a good relationship.. no matter what kind of relationship: husband, boyfriend, friend-with-rights....
And for the girls? should it be the same way? should we have to be great in bed for our guys?
I definetly think so! After years of experience, reading, investigating and asking my girlfriends, size is important in girls too! We have to match with our man and satisfy him in every way so that niether they or we have to look for something else out of the relationship.
Conclusion: it does matters... in bed but not necessary out of it.
And what about the amount of years knowing a friend... Is it a type of size too? does this give us rights to date them again even if they date someone else?

XoXo

Dirrty Prraka

Giving stars

Today, I was wondering about the guys in our lives... we spend the day knowing we are fabulous, but when suddenly a guy doesn't demostrate that to us, all that selfconfidence just vanished.. WHY??? We, women, ARE fabulous. We should think about that more often, no jerk should take that away from us! And belive me, there have been a loooot of jerks in my life. So, I decided to do a list: name of the guy and stars he deserves.. some just doesn't count because there were starless, or I don't remember or I want to forget them.
Do we all have a list? I had one once but I throw it away when I started to see there were too many dorks in there! Why is that we always like idiots the most? As I already told, I'm stopping date frogs.
This chart made me think about my relationships: this friend of mine, the norwegian one, Jack, is the best relationship I have! Five star guy, amazing in bed, intelligent, handsome, lots of things in common, and understands what I want: be with him when I'm with him. It can sound complicated but it's not. We live too far away, so, we enjoy ourselves every time we see eachother! I find it unbelivable that so many men can't accept that sometimes, WE, Women want to have something like this: no complication full fun time! Lot of times, guys act inmature and invent in their own brains that if we date them is exclusively because we want to marry them! Oh Hell No! but does that still exists? Marriage?
Anyway...Of the guys I gave five stars... I have to say that this one is the only one with I really wouln't mind spent the rest of my life. It would be definetly a non-stop fun life! Just like it should be: a 5 star life!

XoXo

Dirrty Prraka

And if it's really so?

I just talked to Richard.. now that we finally live in the same city we talk more often but we don't see eachother... why? Because he has a Girlfriend... pretty nice by the way... I have to say I missjudge her (really bad from my side.. bad prraka!!! Very bad!) and if there's something I can be completly sure on this earth is that, this guy loves me more than anyone on this planet. I think he didn't expect those feelings to come again..... We met three weeks ago... of course I was wearing nice clothes: not too provocative of course, I didn't want to scare the poor guy after 6 years without seeing eachother, right? And I must say, what I felt was undescriptable... I wasn't really expecting that.. it was like a tension.. I don't know exactly what.. I was so nervous.. I didn't know what to say, what to do... and I know he felt that also.. although he was looking like relaxed, it was too much: I know he's not that way. And then, suddenly, the girlfriend came into the kitchen!!!! A little cute skinny girl.... I was in shock! She was so adorable... she didn't look like that on Facebook, but of course.. pictures are pictures... as my brother says they steal your soul...uuuuuhhhh! She treats me so good that when my lust takes my mind with images of me and Richard I can only think about not hurting her! Very clever dear friend... introducing me to your innocent girlfriend that every day makes more clear that she doesn't really know about our past.
We spent this weekend all together because of his birthday.. thank God his best friend came too and we were at least 4... I don't like to be 3: or it is 2 or it's 4 but never 3! I have to admit it was a lovely weekend, it was very important for me to feel accepted in this new country.. I met a lot of people and I have a new girlfriend... wich is always great!
They picked me up at my house... I was so nervous! As every time I see this guy.... WHY?!?!?! What the hell happens in my brain when I think about him?
We were in the car and I could only spy him in the mirror... so as he did with me.... watch out my dear Richard: don't get blind of so much looking at me! Of course I was dazzling... perfect make up, hair, nails, clothes.... what it takes to call his attention. I'm kind of jelous of the girl.. but I'm just like that, and I saw him first!
I think they were the whole weekend like worried... all girls on this planet would take an eye on a new-old-friend of her boyfriend, right? and of course Richard doesn't want to be closer on temptation than he already is... so, to calm them I had an ace kept for sunday: "I'm dating this guy and I think we should meet the 4 of us.. what a coincidence.. he got the same name" and they showed delighted to invited us 2 to have dinner some time at their new house.. and bet I'll go!

But all this just makes me wonder: This is it? After all we've been through, we're going to end "justlikefriends" without trying anything? Aren't we just have the chance to have a real relationship in the same country and city? Is it really so?

Life is cruel!!!!

XOXO

Dirrty Prraka

When frogs turn into princes and princes turn into frogs...

It's been already 6 months since I started my new Life on my own and I'm enjoying it soo much!
Well the thing is that I decided two months ago stop dating frogs... you know when you date a frog just for fun?... because he looked ok at the disco (MISTAKE! you were drunk... so he didn't look terrible but actually HE IS!) so you date him.... and of course.. you have to always finish what you start... this was exactly what happened to me a couple of months ago... after all the cuties and goodies (Luke doesn't count as goodie) I've dated this past months there I was....dating a jerk! A weird guy who thinks he's super cool but then is totally insupportable... critizing all the other guys on earth.. because germans are this and nordics are the other.... wh wh whaaaat!?!??! my favourite guys and he's just making fun of them??? NO NO NO! A guy who asks in an italian restaurant for "Spaguetti Bolognesa" but please without "meat and tomato " doesn't deserve any respect! Do you want the spaguetti without pasta too???? OMG I was so embarrassed... if you don't like meet and tomato.. you can ask for something else right? D O R K!
It's incredible how a guy who can look like a prince can turn into a frog just with opening his mouth!
In this category there is my friend Luke who looks like a hot tall nordic prince and is a stupid scared little boy trying to... i really.. no, HE really doesn't know what he is trying to, so let's say just "trying" .... the way he acts makes him be a frog... what a shame... poor guy... every time this things happens I'm more convinced that older guys that are still singles is because of a reason... they are simply WEIRD!
But there are the frogs who just talk to you and they become a prince... that's the case of my friend Richard "the second".. I know that is terrible to be named "the second" but he's the second guy I meet with that name... well the point is that maybe he can look weird (although I like him) but the way he treats me makes him be a total prince... at the beginning I wasn't very convinced but once we started dating I realized that he's amazing!
So after all this I really think I have enough guys to date who I know quite well and I don't need to date more frogs because I already enjoy different types of life with my princes!!!

Watch out.. there are always exceptions.. even for exceptions are exceptions!

XOXO

Dirrrty Prraka

And look what we found!

Once upon a time in a country now, far away, there was this concert. Two cities, one choice. Friday or saturday? No, better saturday so that we can travel no stress, ok, Saturday, then it has to be in city number two.. city number two is cool.. lets go!

So we went there.... Perrakas ready to burn down the city and enjoy the super concert!!!!

Day one: flight delayed, terrible service on the plane, came to the airport and got a discount in the taxi to the hotel, ok but.. ejem... hotel not too good as the pics in internet... service kind of weird... Well doesn't matter we were on OUR weekend so we wanted to enjoy the city.... cool, but it went dark so early! Then went to a place to have a drink... that became one drink after the other: Tropicaltini, Tartini, Martini.. everything ended in "ini".

After I don't remember how many coktails.. came this guys: Hello, where are you from, nice to meet you... bla bla bla and.. well, they don't look bad at all... no, they look quite good... I like this one! Suddenly each of us was talking to one guy.. around our age, very intelligent, good job both of them... cool!

Went to another place... of course with all the cocktails I've drank I can't remember how we got there or what time it was but the guy, Luke was hot... and Naughty Prraka was totally into the other guy... Marcelo... so I lost her and without taking note of it I had another coktail in my hand and Luke talking to my ear... that became kissing and going to the bathroom for a little more passion... oh.. just remember it, makes me want to be there again...

Day two: late breakfast, get ready to find another hotel.. a not too bad one if possible... got a taxi and the guy gave us a card of a bed and breakfast.... they've got a free room.. cool!

Day started bad but is getting better. Got to the B&B.. I don't know how but I had Luke's camera (by the way, the last time I was at his house it was still on the table with all the pics from that trip)

So we called the guys to meet them with the great excuse to give the camera back (good trick I'll take it in mind for next time) we were crazy to see them! We went for a walk and some drinks and it was dark again... hey guys.. we have tickets for a concert tonight, want to come? what kind of concert? The type you will like.... ok! we went back to the B&B to take a shower, etc and we were so nervous: disaster in the bathroom!!! make up, what should I wear????

At this time we had to meet another two girlfriends, they had tickets for the concert too.. so while we were waiting for them, I packed the luggage for me and Naughty Prraka and got ready to see Luke. She was having dinner with Marcelo... and finally the concert... Incredible!

Day three: sadly at 4.00 in the morning we had to take a taxi to the airport!

After that trip we discover that we made some decisions before we all go to that city: this one? no, better the other one, this weekend? no, better that one... should we go to that place? no better this one and.... we were there! Look what we all found... for a couple: Love, (they are so together) for the other: I don't know... passion? A cool time together? Luke and I had already met once but it was kind of weird. What will happend next time we meet? I would like to know it too!

This "thing" I don't know how to call it.. it's nothing, but disturbs me and doesn't let me think clearly.. for example with the Viking... I think it's going to be in my way until I figure out what it is and how can solve it... hope quickly!

Before all this I was doubting if coincidences exist but after that crazy trip I definetly don't believe in coincidences... all we do in this Life happens for a reason!
That trip was the first chapter of our new Lifes and you know what? I'm kind of liking it!

I read somewhere once, that people come into our lives for a reason, a season or for lifetime...

What would this be?

XoXo

Dirty Prraka

Life is Wonderful

Dirty Prraka writing.... men I think I need another trip to Oslo and soon! I was in Oslo last weekend... what a city and such an incredible people!!! Did I ever mentioned that I love blond guys? well the thing is that I went there to meet this guy... Jack... what a Viking! He's a friend of my very best Prraka since they don't even remember and he has come a lot of times to our city but we had never met... we were messenger friends and then facebook friends but never really talked too much and one day we started to talk and know eachother and surprise!: we had so many things in common! So we decided to meet there. I spent an incredible weekend.. I even kissed a girl! (I thought I was too old for this stuff but I'm starting to believe we are never too old) Jack sold himself very good... "I am this way and this other" and in fact he was much better than he said! Lately I'm not like too into trust guys (maybe I should have never had.. but we all make mistakes) but this one is so nice! He has this friends: crazy ones by the way, so free and cheerful... they organize so cool partys and they are so positive... they have such a good way to see life.. they really enjoy it and I had this great oportunity to enjoy life with them at least just for one weekend... hope there can be more than one of course... but.. may I trust Jack? I really like him but, of course, I just came out from a looooong relationship and I have never experiment this before.. I guess after a breakup there's always a time when you don't trust anyone and you need to be with yourself. Jack is so great! He's always writing me sms and taking care of me...he says he misses me... that the house is so empty without me.... can this really happens or he just says that to every girl? Can we love a person just by sharing a weekend together?
Well, it happended to me with Richard... but this is nothing like that was (terrible this word... "was") He's just one of a kind and I'm trying really hard to see him as he wants me to see him: (and here there go.. those terrible words we never want to hear or read)
J U S T L I K E A F R I E N D
Going back to Jack...is so hard to be apart.. can I just for one time be with a normal guy? No, I can't... I see: I'm just like that... weird! Not even normal friends! Don't even know what to feel. What I do know is that I want to have Jack in my life and share with him as many wonderful moments as possible. I love the way he makes me feel! He is all the good adjectives I can think of! I mean it: If you have the oportunity to be with a norwegian guy: DO IT! (I should get a sticker for my car with a phrase like this)
Thank you Jack, for show me that Life is wonderful and is pretty short, so, sometimes we have to give ourselves a chance to really enjoy it no matter what!

XoXo

Dirty Prraka

The day we....

Once upon a time, we were younger and loved to go every thursday to a disco.... there they were: people from all over the world dancing and having fun at the same time in the same place... it was so cool.. from that place we could get a lot of experiences... one of them good, another not so good...

For example there was Damian... an incredible spanish good looking guy... so nice to flirt with but at the end he was really dumb and... have to say not too good in bed.. very boring indeed so I had to fake it... twice... I know is terrible but he was so handsome and I was so drunk both of the times that I couln'd resist... yes we are like this and no woman on earth can say they have never fake it.. at least once...

Another example... Bert, from the Netherlands... he was incredibly handsome sooo tall and blond... I love blonde ones!... and spoke a lot of languages... he could dance so good! He was soooo intelligent... now we works for a great company and has its own apartment.. and he has invite me to visit him... but when I remember how boring he was in bed... doubts come to me! Maybe everyone deserves a second chance?

To continue with the list.. there was Toby... OMG!!!! The best guy in bed ever!!! a tall german, so handsome and nice.. talkative and smart but one day he moved back to Germany and we lost contact... maybe I should write him...

The rest maybe are not too interesting.. or at least I don't remember them right now... maybe I was too drunk...

In my Life there has been bad guys, good ones, incredible ones, the big love (but sadly not the one), the love of my life ( I mean, the one I will always be able to be with), ugly ones, not so ugly, cuties, hotties.... but now that I'm single again I've decided to stop dating frogs and just date charming guys ant let them dazzel me, because that's what Life is for right? To enjoy it!!!!

XoXo

Dirty Prraka

Friends : true or fantasie?

Do you ever think about... What would happened if.... well.. I always think in people... when we meet someone and that someone change our life or just makes us be what we are now...

Nowadays, in this cruel world when we have to be the best to get a car, a house, a pet, a job, a couple.... enverything... friends are the only ones with whom we can relax with.. the only ones with we can be ourselves... this people called "friends" as everyone knows, are the family we choose.

But sometimes I think.... do we really choose our friends? Maybe friendship is just as a lover.. we have to conect with them... feel the chemistry to be truly friends.

We have several types of friends:

Party friends, shopping friends, coffee friends, sex friends, travel friends.... and true friends.. the ones with whom we can hang the whole day around and do whatever we want... tell what we want... let's say just be natural... and with whom we simply enjoy life...

My friend Naughty Perraka is one of those... true friends... we are one when we are together.. in my whole life I have met bunch of people but as this one... no one!

For example my friend Nikki... she's so crazy.. is super cool.. I remember once we went to a shopping mall and we had to cross a highway to get there.. we almost got killed by a car but we made it and we could hang with our friends the whole afternoon.

Or my friend Caroline, we know eachother since we were not even born.. I remember once we were 14 and wanted to go to a music festival.... her older sister took us there and let us spend the whole day by ourselves... of course our mums never knew we were alone.. we had so much fun but now I think about it and say... I can't belive nothing happened tu us... we were so young!!!

Or my friend Lu, she rocks but sometimes is so complicate to meet her... we went to school together... she's my concert friend... the only one who shares with me the passion for this band...she knows wich one... we have made so many trips together... we say we are the "forever roomies". So cool!

But my Perraka is my soulmate... we have left a lot of experiences together. I just can't imagine how boring my life would have been without her in it! So I can give faith that friends are not fantasy and you can live fantastic true experiences with them!

XoXo

Dirty Prraka

Richard: My first Kiss

Dirty Prraka talking.... tonight I've found my inspiration in Richard... my first love.. although he's not online now (I hate when this happens!!!! He should be always online in case I need something!!!Grrrr) he deserves a whole chapter! He's the reason why I believe in love at first sight... this has only happened to me with him, and maybe the future has surprises for us but, for several reasons we are not together now...

We met when we were 15 in Paradise Island... I didn't know he was there, but when I got to the place I should stay, indeed he was there... I was the new one, the wonder but he was so nice to me.. and guys, I have to say: I wasn't nothing special at that terrible age.... but he could see beyond my appearence and read deeply in my soul.

We conected inmediately and we spent an unforgetable time together... I was totally crazy about him... I can still remember his touch, his smell, his voice his smile and every moment we have left together.
After that, we sent us several letters... kind of love letters I think... I still keep them under my bed but haven't read them never again. Then it was internet and well it stills that way: internet.. God bless internet!

Our lives had run in different directions but not too different ones... We have common thoughts and wishes.

And as Murphy's law dictates ( I am fan of that universal law!), now that I am finally single he has a girlfriend! Nothing compare to me (of course) but I don't want to get in the middle and of course I don't want to know anything about her! I'm too jelous for that stuff. But In case they got married I already know where will I buy the dress... Naughty Prraka is totally agree! The dresses of that store are made to impress!!!!

Well, the thing is that every time we see eachother, we live pure pasion, pure magic and it's incredible to be with him!

Richard is such a sweet guy... well, that's what you think when you see him... he treats me like a queen and I love that.. he was my first kiss but we had to wait 7 years to finally have sex and guys... it was amazing!!! Now I know that behind that cute sweet boy is a wild lion ready to make me scream and enjoy so much!

He's not my tipical type of guy... but I liked him so much... I can maybe consider him my best friend.. I know I can tell him everything and he will listen to me and keep it in secret. I wish he consider me at least that way.

Everywhere I go I send him a postcard.. I like to let him know that he's on my mind no matter how far we are. I still keep all the things he has gave me.. and the most important... my memories!

I remember one night that we went to his neighbour's house to have dinner.. it was great.. she cooked Greek food and we started to drink wine... at the end of the night we have drank one bottle each! I don't even remember how I reached the bed but the pictures let me speachless...

There was also this time that I went to London with my parents and he told me he would be there too. I gave him my number but.. a wrong one.. my mistake! The next day we were there, me and my family went to the Virgin store just to take a look and as I was searching for a CD

I couldn't believe it: OMG Who am I looking at?!?!?! Is that really him playing videogames???? If that was not destiny then what? We made an apointment for next day to see London.. It was so romantic!

In one month I'm going to visit him and his family (by the way.. they love me!) hope the girlfirend not to be around.... because I'm not ready to face her! and there was one night as we were skypeing (with the webcam) he promised me a "big surprise".. what would that be? Is it what I want it to be? Should I just let it go, as always? Maybe that would be my position.... The very best girlfriend that will always be there, very quitely, listen to everything without saying and doing what she really wants to!

XoXo

Dirty Prraka

P.S: Richard.. what you're hoping to find in your Girlfriend is something only I can give you! Throw her away!!!!

About us

Everything started one day, one cold and boring day of winter, when me, naughty prraka and my BBF, dirty prraka began to remember all our past and so crazy adventures....So we decided to share them with the rest of you guys...Of course....Names has been changed in order to protect the identity of some...well....jackasses....not all of them....only a few....hehehehe.

Hope you like it and enjoy it as much as we do writing about it...

XoXo

Prrakas