Tha Sugar Daddy

It was hot it was summer and thank god it was friday.

I was going on a date with an already known sugar daddy, 14 year older than me. 

We met at the bar of a hotel that friday night. He was cool, he was fun, interesting, nice.... Of course, alcohol played an important part and well.. it was a matter of time.. at 5 in the morning.... ejem.... we ended it up in bed.

He was intense, he was rough but something was missing... the size was not what I expected, but I have to admit, he had a lot of idea about what he had to do and how. 

The next morning, through my walk of shame, I discovered a fucking fine on my car!!! Shit!!! 

From that day on....That´s the only thing I want to remember about my brief encounter with tha sugar daddy.

Naughty Prraka

Does the SIZE really matters?

Today I got a revelation: all the things I believed about Richard's feelings for me are true! That only demostrates that I know him so good that we don't even need words... that's sweet.. friends do that kind of things. All this happended listening to Paolo Nutini, wich my dearest friend Naughty Prraka will totally understand why is this so important! and after a lovely afternoon of drinking coffee, watch series with Richard and talk about the past and the present I had to call my BFF to talk about everything and anything and we (of course) ended talking about guys... guys from the past, from the present and from the future.
Going back to my past I couldn't avoid ask myself: Does the size really matters? For me I thought it was: buying shoes was always terrible for me until I got to this wonderful country where everyone is huge and women need bigger shoes. Then, there is the size of the clothes of course.. now with the internet shopping you have to take very good care about your size.
About men, I always had felt atracted to tall ones and so, I have been always dating tall ones until I met Jack. He's not really short actually, but short enough to look short to me, but the truth is that I like him soooo much.. does this mean something? And Brian? He's short enough too but kisses sooo good!!! May I forget the shortyness because they are good in everything else?
What about in bed? does that size matters?
For us it does! We have never really see a shorty or a skinny sized guy more than once if he was so... the guys we have keep seing are because they satisfy us in all possible ways. We think that's a very important part of a good relationship.. no matter what kind of relationship: husband, boyfriend, friend-with-rights....
And for the girls? should it be the same way? should we have to be great in bed for our guys?
I definetly think so! After years of experience, reading, investigating and asking my girlfriends, size is important in girls too! We have to match with our man and satisfy him in every way so that niether they or we have to look for something else out of the relationship.
Conclusion: it does matters... in bed but not necessary out of it.
And what about the amount of years knowing a friend... Is it a type of size too? does this give us rights to date them again even if they date someone else?

XoXo

Dirrty Prraka

Giving stars

Today, I was wondering about the guys in our lives... we spend the day knowing we are fabulous, but when suddenly a guy doesn't demostrate that to us, all that selfconfidence just vanished.. WHY??? We, women, ARE fabulous. We should think about that more often, no jerk should take that away from us! And belive me, there have been a loooot of jerks in my life. So, I decided to do a list: name of the guy and stars he deserves.. some just doesn't count because there were starless, or I don't remember or I want to forget them.
Do we all have a list? I had one once but I throw it away when I started to see there were too many dorks in there! Why is that we always like idiots the most? As I already told, I'm stopping date frogs.
This chart made me think about my relationships: this friend of mine, the norwegian one, Jack, is the best relationship I have! Five star guy, amazing in bed, intelligent, handsome, lots of things in common, and understands what I want: be with him when I'm with him. It can sound complicated but it's not. We live too far away, so, we enjoy ourselves every time we see eachother! I find it unbelivable that so many men can't accept that sometimes, WE, Women want to have something like this: no complication full fun time! Lot of times, guys act inmature and invent in their own brains that if we date them is exclusively because we want to marry them! Oh Hell No! but does that still exists? Marriage?
Anyway...Of the guys I gave five stars... I have to say that this one is the only one with I really wouln't mind spent the rest of my life. It would be definetly a non-stop fun life! Just like it should be: a 5 star life!

XoXo

Dirrty Prraka

And if it's really so?

I just talked to Richard.. now that we finally live in the same city we talk more often but we don't see eachother... why? Because he has a Girlfriend... pretty nice by the way... I have to say I missjudge her (really bad from my side.. bad prraka!!! Very bad!) and if there's something I can be completly sure on this earth is that, this guy loves me more than anyone on this planet. I think he didn't expect those feelings to come again..... We met three weeks ago... of course I was wearing nice clothes: not too provocative of course, I didn't want to scare the poor guy after 6 years without seeing eachother, right? And I must say, what I felt was undescriptable... I wasn't really expecting that.. it was like a tension.. I don't know exactly what.. I was so nervous.. I didn't know what to say, what to do... and I know he felt that also.. although he was looking like relaxed, it was too much: I know he's not that way. And then, suddenly, the girlfriend came into the kitchen!!!! A little cute skinny girl.... I was in shock! She was so adorable... she didn't look like that on Facebook, but of course.. pictures are pictures... as my brother says they steal your soul...uuuuuhhhh! She treats me so good that when my lust takes my mind with images of me and Richard I can only think about not hurting her! Very clever dear friend... introducing me to your innocent girlfriend that every day makes more clear that she doesn't really know about our past.
We spent this weekend all together because of his birthday.. thank God his best friend came too and we were at least 4... I don't like to be 3: or it is 2 or it's 4 but never 3! I have to admit it was a lovely weekend, it was very important for me to feel accepted in this new country.. I met a lot of people and I have a new girlfriend... wich is always great!
They picked me up at my house... I was so nervous! As every time I see this guy.... WHY?!?!?! What the hell happens in my brain when I think about him?
We were in the car and I could only spy him in the mirror... so as he did with me.... watch out my dear Richard: don't get blind of so much looking at me! Of course I was dazzling... perfect make up, hair, nails, clothes.... what it takes to call his attention. I'm kind of jelous of the girl.. but I'm just like that, and I saw him first!
I think they were the whole weekend like worried... all girls on this planet would take an eye on a new-old-friend of her boyfriend, right? and of course Richard doesn't want to be closer on temptation than he already is... so, to calm them I had an ace kept for sunday: "I'm dating this guy and I think we should meet the 4 of us.. what a coincidence.. he got the same name" and they showed delighted to invited us 2 to have dinner some time at their new house.. and bet I'll go!

But all this just makes me wonder: This is it? After all we've been through, we're going to end "justlikefriends" without trying anything? Aren't we just have the chance to have a real relationship in the same country and city? Is it really so?

Life is cruel!!!!

XOXO

Dirrty Prraka

When frogs turn into princes and princes turn into frogs...

It's been already 6 months since I started my new Life on my own and I'm enjoying it soo much!
Well the thing is that I decided two months ago stop dating frogs... you know when you date a frog just for fun?... because he looked ok at the disco (MISTAKE! you were drunk... so he didn't look terrible but actually HE IS!) so you date him.... and of course.. you have to always finish what you start... this was exactly what happened to me a couple of months ago... after all the cuties and goodies (Luke doesn't count as goodie) I've dated this past months there I was....dating a jerk! A weird guy who thinks he's super cool but then is totally insupportable... critizing all the other guys on earth.. because germans are this and nordics are the other.... wh wh whaaaat!?!??! my favourite guys and he's just making fun of them??? NO NO NO! A guy who asks in an italian restaurant for "Spaguetti Bolognesa" but please without "meat and tomato " doesn't deserve any respect! Do you want the spaguetti without pasta too???? OMG I was so embarrassed... if you don't like meet and tomato.. you can ask for something else right? D O R K!
It's incredible how a guy who can look like a prince can turn into a frog just with opening his mouth!
In this category there is my friend Luke who looks like a hot tall nordic prince and is a stupid scared little boy trying to... i really.. no, HE really doesn't know what he is trying to, so let's say just "trying" .... the way he acts makes him be a frog... what a shame... poor guy... every time this things happens I'm more convinced that older guys that are still singles is because of a reason... they are simply WEIRD!
But there are the frogs who just talk to you and they become a prince... that's the case of my friend Richard "the second".. I know that is terrible to be named "the second" but he's the second guy I meet with that name... well the point is that maybe he can look weird (although I like him) but the way he treats me makes him be a total prince... at the beginning I wasn't very convinced but once we started dating I realized that he's amazing!
So after all this I really think I have enough guys to date who I know quite well and I don't need to date more frogs because I already enjoy different types of life with my princes!!!

Watch out.. there are always exceptions.. even for exceptions are exceptions!

XOXO

Dirrrty Prraka

And look what we found!

Once upon a time in a country now, far away, there was this concert. Two cities, one choice. Friday or saturday? No, better saturday so that we can travel no stress, ok, Saturday, then it has to be in city number two.. city number two is cool.. lets go!

So we went there.... Perrakas ready to burn down the city and enjoy the super concert!!!!

Day one: flight delayed, terrible service on the plane, came to the airport and got a discount in the taxi to the hotel, ok but.. ejem... hotel not too good as the pics in internet... service kind of weird... Well doesn't matter we were on OUR weekend so we wanted to enjoy the city.... cool, but it went dark so early! Then went to a place to have a drink... that became one drink after the other: Tropicaltini, Tartini, Martini.. everything ended in "ini".

After I don't remember how many coktails.. came this guys: Hello, where are you from, nice to meet you... bla bla bla and.. well, they don't look bad at all... no, they look quite good... I like this one! Suddenly each of us was talking to one guy.. around our age, very intelligent, good job both of them... cool!

Went to another place... of course with all the cocktails I've drank I can't remember how we got there or what time it was but the guy, Luke was hot... and Naughty Prraka was totally into the other guy... Marcelo... so I lost her and without taking note of it I had another coktail in my hand and Luke talking to my ear... that became kissing and going to the bathroom for a little more passion... oh.. just remember it, makes me want to be there again...

Day two: late breakfast, get ready to find another hotel.. a not too bad one if possible... got a taxi and the guy gave us a card of a bed and breakfast.... they've got a free room.. cool!

Day started bad but is getting better. Got to the B&B.. I don't know how but I had Luke's camera (by the way, the last time I was at his house it was still on the table with all the pics from that trip)

So we called the guys to meet them with the great excuse to give the camera back (good trick I'll take it in mind for next time) we were crazy to see them! We went for a walk and some drinks and it was dark again... hey guys.. we have tickets for a concert tonight, want to come? what kind of concert? The type you will like.... ok! we went back to the B&B to take a shower, etc and we were so nervous: disaster in the bathroom!!! make up, what should I wear????

At this time we had to meet another two girlfriends, they had tickets for the concert too.. so while we were waiting for them, I packed the luggage for me and Naughty Prraka and got ready to see Luke. She was having dinner with Marcelo... and finally the concert... Incredible!

Day three: sadly at 4.00 in the morning we had to take a taxi to the airport!

After that trip we discover that we made some decisions before we all go to that city: this one? no, better the other one, this weekend? no, better that one... should we go to that place? no better this one and.... we were there! Look what we all found... for a couple: Love, (they are so together) for the other: I don't know... passion? A cool time together? Luke and I had already met once but it was kind of weird. What will happend next time we meet? I would like to know it too!

This "thing" I don't know how to call it.. it's nothing, but disturbs me and doesn't let me think clearly.. for example with the Viking... I think it's going to be in my way until I figure out what it is and how can solve it... hope quickly!

Before all this I was doubting if coincidences exist but after that crazy trip I definetly don't believe in coincidences... all we do in this Life happens for a reason!
That trip was the first chapter of our new Lifes and you know what? I'm kind of liking it!

I read somewhere once, that people come into our lives for a reason, a season or for lifetime...

What would this be?

XoXo

Dirty Prraka

Life is Wonderful

Dirty Prraka writing.... men I think I need another trip to Oslo and soon! I was in Oslo last weekend... what a city and such an incredible people!!! Did I ever mentioned that I love blond guys? well the thing is that I went there to meet this guy... Jack... what a Viking! He's a friend of my very best Prraka since they don't even remember and he has come a lot of times to our city but we had never met... we were messenger friends and then facebook friends but never really talked too much and one day we started to talk and know eachother and surprise!: we had so many things in common! So we decided to meet there. I spent an incredible weekend.. I even kissed a girl! (I thought I was too old for this stuff but I'm starting to believe we are never too old) Jack sold himself very good... "I am this way and this other" and in fact he was much better than he said! Lately I'm not like too into trust guys (maybe I should have never had.. but we all make mistakes) but this one is so nice! He has this friends: crazy ones by the way, so free and cheerful... they organize so cool partys and they are so positive... they have such a good way to see life.. they really enjoy it and I had this great oportunity to enjoy life with them at least just for one weekend... hope there can be more than one of course... but.. may I trust Jack? I really like him but, of course, I just came out from a looooong relationship and I have never experiment this before.. I guess after a breakup there's always a time when you don't trust anyone and you need to be with yourself. Jack is so great! He's always writing me sms and taking care of me...he says he misses me... that the house is so empty without me.... can this really happens or he just says that to every girl? Can we love a person just by sharing a weekend together?
Well, it happended to me with Richard... but this is nothing like that was (terrible this word... "was") He's just one of a kind and I'm trying really hard to see him as he wants me to see him: (and here there go.. those terrible words we never want to hear or read)
J U S T L I K E A F R I E N D
Going back to Jack...is so hard to be apart.. can I just for one time be with a normal guy? No, I can't... I see: I'm just like that... weird! Not even normal friends! Don't even know what to feel. What I do know is that I want to have Jack in my life and share with him as many wonderful moments as possible. I love the way he makes me feel! He is all the good adjectives I can think of! I mean it: If you have the oportunity to be with a norwegian guy: DO IT! (I should get a sticker for my car with a phrase like this)
Thank you Jack, for show me that Life is wonderful and is pretty short, so, sometimes we have to give ourselves a chance to really enjoy it no matter what!

XoXo

Dirty Prraka